We have more news today. Rob starts Chemotherapy on Wednesday the 16th, I will be taking the day off to be with him.
I don' even know what to say somehow it seems I am supposed to talk so that I am not holding anything in, I am so confused I don't even know where to start. If I think about what Rob has to go through, as in not working when he loves to work and he will not be able to do anything at home because he will fell awful, my problems and concerns seem so small. I have to be so strong, I will have to do all the cleaning, have a full time job, cook and be a mom. Rob has done so much for the last year when I was working part time and full time. It is going to such an adjustment for both of us, Rob helps me with the cooking and cleaning, and now he wont be able to. I know I am not the only one to go through this but this is how I feel.
I know not to panic yet. Someone told me a story that his brother was feeling tired but ate really healthy and exercised everyday, and then his daughter had a health issue but felt fine, they both did tests and the daughter was not low on any vitamins or stuff like that and the guys brother was low on about 3 things. The story was told to me to say that things are not always as they seem. I think we make things bigger than they are, but for the record I am terrified, I told like seeing people in pain, and especially people I love.
I know we will make it through I love you Rob!!