Christmas was fantastic this year. The boys were given lots of presents for Christmas. Tyler is taking pictures with his camera that he got from Uncle Craig, the other picture with Mark and Loro building is a thing to make forts with, the boys really liked it and I know we are going to have lots of fun with it. Mark, Loro, Craig, Izabela, my mom, Rob and I all stayed after dinner and played games, it was a lot of fun and I hope we will be able to do it again in the near future. This is what Christmas is all about.

On Christmas morning Seth and Tyler opened the presents from us, we gave Tyler Chuck my talking truck. He loved it and knew exactly what it was...... he goes eeeeeehhhhh!! THANK YOU MOMMY, really loud, it was so adorable. We gave Seth a camera like the one Tyler is holding in the picture above, he opened it and I kept asking him what is it and he finally answered "Cheese", lol!! he knew it was a camera but when I have a camera in his face all he has associtaed with it is say cheese. It was a perfect day, except the turkey was dry and so was the ham. On the way home I was saying to Rob that I wish I could wake up tomorrow and it be this day all over again. I loved the reactions from my boys in the morning and I loved spending the day with my brothers, Loro and Izabel.

The boys and I went to the Olympic Oval today with my mom. They had caroling, coloring and cookie decorating. It was a lot of fun. This was the first time that Tyler has been skating. I was putting my skates on and was watching Tyler but I didn't anticipate that he would walk on the ice, it was so funny he stepped on the ice and immediately fell, I just laughed and he laughed too, but then he was scared to go on the ice after that. He would go if I held him up but that was hard on my back. Seth went on the ice once and then he wouldn't go again, he didn't fall so I am not sure why he didn't want to go again. We tried getting the boys to use the red metal things they have to hold them up but they weren't interested in that either. Then we went to Mcdonalds for supper and they played in the play place, it was the first time that I had seen Tyler play in the playplace, because I have never taken them to one that has one. My mom has taken them before though. We had a great time and it was really nice to get out of the house. This was the first outing that I didn't put Tyler in a diaper and he did so awesome he just peed his pants when we got home, lol!!, he peed in the potty when we were out 3 times.
The picture of Tyler on the truck and Seth in the wagon..... They pull each other around like that, but they had to hold on and Seth hurt his fingers and Tyler wasn't able to hold on so Rob went downstairs and got some zip ties so now they don't have to hold on, and it a great way for me to get them to clean up their toys because their is no room to ride around until they do.
And the last thing to say is Rob went for a test today because he is coughing a lot and his lungs hurt, but the test came back great and they said that he isn't having problems with his lungs and it is just the drug that is irritating them. So he has to deal with coughing especially in the middle of the night but at least he doesn't have to switch drugs or taking something else. This chemo treatment wasn't very good for Rob he took along time to recover he was a trooper though. He gets a three week break now though, and then back at it. Well Merry Christmas to all and or Seasons Greetings lol!! and if I don't post in the next week I will talk to you in the New Year

I don't even know if anyone reads this blog anymore but here goes. Craig, Izabel, Rob and I went to the Chili Thai Club House it is on 17th Ave SW and it is so cute, the silverware is so cool. It is fancy and tastes so good. We ordered this one spicy curry dish that was good to us except Rob. When we left there I asked him if the dish was just spicy or if he didn't like it. He said that it tasted like spicy soap, lol!!, I think it was the reaction from having chemo on Wednesday. The chemo leaves a rotten egg taste in his mouth, or sometimes a metallic taste. So I guess some things don't mix well with it, I was laughing really hard cause he said my soap eating days are over I was not going to eat that. Then we went and watched New Moon, it was not as good as I had hoped for, the book was WAY better. It felt like things were too rushed and an over reaction to get across the point that something was dangerous. Izabel made a good point it is hard to make romance an action.

On another note I was driving to my moms today and I had to slam on the brakes and I skidded a little cause someone decided to stop on a yield and no one was around, and Seth goes "uuuhhhh!! careful mommy", I thought it was so cute I just said awww! thanks Seth I will. So now I am having an issue of Seth not wanting to clean up the toys. We asked him to help Rob and Tyler clean up the bedroom, it was a disaster, and he said no, so he sat in the hall while Rob and Tyler cleaned up. Rob saved some of the toys and Seth had to go in there and clean up a little when Rob and Tyler were done, and Seth did clean them up but it was probably cause he didn't want to sit in the hall again. Then a couple of hours later it was time for supper and I asked them to clean up the mess they made and Seth again said no to us and Tyler cleaned up his toys. So Seth sat there and I told him he had to clean up his toys before he came for supper, I asked him if he wanted salad with his supper he loves salad and I was trying to bribe him and he said yes but still wouldn't clean up the toys, so we started eating I didn't even get one bite in and he quickly cleaned up all the toys and sat down and ate dinner with us. I couldn't believe that he did that twice in one day and I have no idea what to do about it, I am crossing my fingers that he doesn't do it again.

Tyler has an amazing vocabulary, he talks so much and it is really easy to understand him too. Tyler wakes up in the middle of the night crying at least once a night and sometimes up to 3 times a night. I am not sure if it is night mares or growing pains. Rob said he grew really quickly and remembers having them.

This post is all over the place so why not add another to it, I am excited about tomorrow well considering the time of this post I guess it would be tonight, I am some friends over for tacos, home made apple cheesecake and games, it is going to be a fun night.

I just had to post this now cause it is funny now and I am not sure if it will be in the morning. I went with Rob to hang out with the guys. Rob has been with them for 2 days and I was a little lonely so I decided to go.... We played 3 games of poker I won the first and Rob won the last.... we came out of there with 200 bucks. So the owner of the house Dave wasn't there for about the first hour or so. He shows up introduces himself to me and then proceeds to say to me that this is a bachelor house and that if I go to the washroom I have to put the toilet seat up...... Lol! I was so embarrassed and was laughing so hard thinking is this how it feels when a girl says that to a guy? also keep in mind there was about 13 guys in the house.... some were family. All in all it was a good night.

This post is for those people who read and shake their head at the work drama I have, and your probably thinking I knew she wouldn't last. I can talk about this because not many people know where I work. There was a new rule that went around the office in an e-mail stating that 2 people who smoke can not go out for a smoke together. I think that rule is unfair just because a person smokes means they can not go for a break with any one who does. So the people that I would want to go for a break with are the ones who smoke. Me and the other girl just ignored the rule and continued to go out. I was just disobeying the rule because I am not 12 and don't live with my parents, that is what parents are allowed to do come up with crazy rules and enforce them.I was approached today by one of the partners of the firm and she told me how she felt about it, I didn't argue and when she asked me my opinion I told her that no one should be able to go for a break together then. And I also said that me and the other girl would just go for a walk. There was a few other things said all along those lines. I said that there should be a new rule then that no junk food is allowed in the office cause I am trying to loose weight and it is not supporting me when people around me are allowed to eat junk food. Oh yeah I forgot to mention that is what this is all about. One person quit in the office so they are enforcing that no one is allowed to smoke together so that they are supporting the ONE who did quit. Which I respect but it's not like I was flaunting it or going out 10 times a day. I went 3 times a day. That was at about 11:00 this morning. So at 4:00 the one partner who does smoke and the one who I work for let me go saying that it was about what happened earlier, but really he didn't need to give me a reason cause I was still on probation. I was honest with them and at least I didn't go ok and not go for smoke breaks with other people until my 3 months was up and then just go out after the probation period cause then they wouldn't have been able to let me go for the smoking issue. I am not upset about it, I guess it wasn't meant to be.
What is it that lawyers do for a living? They fight for the principal of the matter, like in a custody case they fight that both parents get to see the kids, it is out of principal. That is what I was doing, fighting for the principal of the fact but I was disrespectful, they just realized that this was not a fight that they could win so just eliminate the problem.

My dad, Leslie, Rob and I went to Banff this weekend for country in the Rockies. We had a good time, we saw the band Hey Romeo on Saturday night and we went on the Gondola on Saturday. We did LOTS!! of shopping and just relaxed. The hot springs was closed which really sucked cause I was looking forward to going. They are doing renovations. All I have are these pics because I FORGOT MY CAMERA!!I am not impressed that I forgot it.
On Saturday I went shopping for a new outfit to wear to the concert and I came out of the dressing room and there was a 12 year old girl trying on the same thing as me lol, not just once but 3 times..... it was so funny. She stayed in my hotel and at the end of the night I saw her but she didn't choose the same one as me.

Rob is doing ok now. He had a cold during his last chemo treatment and so after he felt aweful and it made his cold worse. Normally when Rob gets a cold he has sniffles for 3 days and he is fine but this time he had aches and pains and a stuffy nose and coughed alot, so he was saying to me that he was in so much pain, and all I said back to him was welcome to the real world this is how most people feel when they get a cold.... he says back.... that sucks. Of course he only felt like crap for a day and a half. He has an amazing immune system, I hope the boys get it too.
I got a call last Thursday from a lawyers office and he was talking to me asking me questions on the phone and then asked when can I meet you and I told him I was available anytime Friday so he hired me and I started working there Friday, then on Wednesday I called in sick I didn't want to but I had all the symptoms of the H1N1 and I was scared, so when I had enough energy I went to the doctor and he said that I have Bronchitis possibly Bronchial Phenomia. I called my boss Thursday morning to tell him and he suggested that I take off until Monday and get better that way I am not pushing myself too much. He is very understanding. What a way to start a new job, take the first week off. This has taken so much out of me, my back hurts, I have a headache, all I do is sleep and I am still so tired.
On a side note if you go to www.oprah.com\payless there is a coupon for 50% off everything in the store until closing today. I wish I had enough energy to check it out.

We went to Pizza Hut on Friday night for supper. My mom had the boys so it was Rob, my dad, Leslie and Deanna. We ordered 24 wings and 3 large pizzas, and we all ordered a pepsi, or diet pepsi. My dad had to go up to the front to ask for a refill. We sat for an hour and a half waiting for supper. We asked and they said 5 minutes so 10 minutes later I went up and asked for a refill for Rob and said to the store manager that he had 60 seconds to have food on our table or we were walking out..... 60 seconds later we got up and left and the food was not ready like they said it was, as we were walking out I had a few words with the manager he says to me it is first come first serve and it takes 20 minutes to cook the wings, I said to him where is the food I don't see it and I left. We were talking about it later and Leslie says well if they only take 20 minutes then we should have had them an hour ago. We went to Atlas Pizza for supper, it is a pub, but they have good wings and pizza. When we went in there was only a booth for the 5 of us and the waitress asked some people to move so we could have the bigger table, she had 9 full tables and the girl at pizza hut had 3 including us. We had wings within 20 minutes of sitting down and our pizza within 35 minutes of sitting down. I called the store manager of Pizza Hut and complained and all he offered me was $40.00 off if I dine in.

Seth, Tyler and I went out yesterday and they saw me doing my hair so they wanted me to do their hair too, that is what the pictures are, lol they are so cute.
Yesterday Rob and I went to the hospital to get his blood tested to see if he could have chemo today and they said that his white blood cell count was too low it was .04, and .00 is the lowest. White blood cells help to fight infection, with it that low the chemo will just wipe out the rest of them. They have this really good drug that will bring his white blood count up and it is super expensive, we have coverage of 80% and that still left us with $185.00 to pay every 2 weeks because he will be on this drug for the rest of the time. I was so upset I started crying I think it was because of sudden bomb being dropped on us, last week we went for the same test and the doctors didn't think that Rob would need to be on the drug. The nurse then told us of this program that if we qualify they will pay the 20% that our plan does not cover. We then went to the hospital pharmacy with our form and the pharmacist said that we should just call them right away and that we could just do it over the phone..... 45 minutes later the company says that we have to pay $100.00 every time and that they will pay the rest, again we can not afford that every 2 weeks for the next 6 months. I mean we would have found a way but because he needed it but we don't have credit cards so it would have made it difficult. Rob needed the drug immediately because his white blood count was so low. Another 30 minutes later we called them back and they assessed again and said that they would cover the whole amount for us, WOW!! we were so happy, and I was so impressed that the pharmacist stayed late to help us figure this out. They went over and above their job to help us they could have told us to go home and call the drug company and come back tomorrow, I think they recognized that his white blood count was low and that was an issue.
You would think it is all good and done now right? Wrong!! The drug is to administered like a flu shot or insulin shot, and you have to do it at home by yourself. I was freaking out thinking that I would have to give the needle to Rob. Then on the way home I remembered that Leslie (step mom) was a nurse and that she probably gave lots of needles so we called her and she said that yes she could do it.
Rob has to have it for 3 days in a row every 2 weeks. Rob called me this morning and asked how many Tylenol he could take, one of the side effects of the drug is your bones are sore, he is in a lot of pain, and will be every time he has to take it which is tonight, tomorrow night and then all over again in 2 weeks.
It feels like we are walking in the dark about everything that we are going through it feels like I don't know the first thing about anything. They tell us to watch for a headache so Rob gets one and then we call and they say oh he is ok check his temperature and if it is fine then he can have tylenol and the only thing he can take is tylenol he can't have and aspirin or an advil cause they have blood thinners in them. At this time we can't look into the future for even a week, we have been asked what are you doing for Christmas and we have no idea it is too far away, will we even have a house then?electricity? heat?, my doctor is not returning the insurance forms so that we can submit them to our mortgage company. Which reminds me I should call the mortgage company and see if there is anything else we can do about it...... good news there is I can take the forms to the doctor who is treating him for the cancer and he will fill it out for sure.
Ok now I am all worked up so I have to go now

Well things seem to be ok with Rob, he is really tired though. He went to work today and I spoke with him and he seemed ok.
I am currently unemployed, I quit my job on Friday, I wont post why cause that could lead to problems, I am looking for another job though and have handed out resumes. I think I should switch careers, I want to be a wedding planner but the most difficult thing is to get reputation. I have done 2 weddings, some birthday parties and 2 bridal shower parties I love it. I applied for an internship to be a wedding planner but they only choose 1 per year and they don't start looking until November, here's to hoping.
I wanted to share this video we took last night, we were all playing with the bowling ball set and Rob decided to use Tyler as a bowling ball it was so funny.

I think I should change this blog to "About Rob", lol!! Rob and I went to his first chemo treatment today and 2 hours after he says he feels fine just tired. The people in the cancer ward were really nice and hopeful and had lots of good tips and information for us. I really want to be there for Rob he should not have to go to treatment by himself, I just started a new job and I have to prove that I am loyal there as well, if I had been there for years I think it would be different story. I feel so torn about taking the day off to be with Rob, when I should be at work.
I don't really have anything else to say we haven't really done anything, the boys are doing really well, growing to fast for me though, especially since I am not around all the time now, they seem to grow faster. They are so cute, last Saturday Rob took Seth to the track with him and they played with remote controls, Seths doesn't work but he had to do everything Rob did, if Rob was fixing his Seth had to have a screw driver to fix his too, Rob put his in the trunk on the way home so Seth did too. I took Tyler Saturday and we went to Walmart. I bought Tyler a new blanky and I let him pick it out I gave him 2 choices and he looked back and forth a couple times tested them both, lol I am not kidding and then choose the fuzzy one, so to make sure that is the one he wanted I tried to give him a different one and he says "no waanit" lol he is so cute! and then to top it off when we got home he didn't want the new one we bought he wanted the old one. Grrrr!! and I can't find anymore like that one but if I do I will buy them all. Well that is all for now I haven't had a nap in a long time so I am going to have a nap today.

We have more news today. Rob starts Chemotherapy on Wednesday the 16th, I will be taking the day off to be with him.
I don' even know what to say somehow it seems I am supposed to talk so that I am not holding anything in, I am so confused I don't even know where to start. If I think about what Rob has to go through, as in not working when he loves to work and he will not be able to do anything at home because he will fell awful, my problems and concerns seem so small. I have to be so strong, I will have to do all the cleaning, have a full time job, cook and be a mom. Rob has done so much for the last year when I was working part time and full time. It is going to such an adjustment for both of us, Rob helps me with the cooking and cleaning, and now he wont be able to. I know I am not the only one to go through this but this is how I feel.
I know not to panic yet. Someone told me a story that his brother was feeling tired but ate really healthy and exercised everyday, and then his daughter had a health issue but felt fine, they both did tests and the daughter was not low on any vitamins or stuff like that and the guys brother was low on about 3 things. The story was told to me to say that things are not always as they seem. I think we make things bigger than they are, but for the record I am terrified, I told like seeing people in pain, and especially people I love.
I know we will make it through I love you Rob!!

So my dad just got married yesterday. The ceremony was really nice and so was the reception. I started at 10:30 in the morning to start decorating, then got ready cause I was in the wedding. Then went and got our pictures taken and then came back for the reception, stayed and danced and then cleaned up. For all of you who have been married you know how much work it is to coordinate a wedding and make sure it runs smoothly. The Bride didn't lift a finger that day. I am not complaining, I love doing that stuff. I don't have pics of the hall but I made the center pieces and the favors, with Robs help. Here are some pics of from Rob's moms camera. The one of the people taking pics of us, Rob was saying there is paparazzi following us, so he was taking a picture of the papparazzi following us, lol they were family and the photographers

I have tried to be really positive in my blog but now I have just had it, and I need to vent, but don't worry I will read this in a day or two and probably delete it. Three times this week I have had a problem with people saying that they will be there for me and then they aren't when I call and ask for help they are busy or they just can't help, or they have their own problems to deal with. If you are going to tell someone you will help with ANYTHING!!, then when they call you should help. Or specify what you will help with when you tell people that you will help them.
On a good note my dad and Leslie cooked dinner for us on Saturday and it was so awesome. They had to go to Co-op for some groceries before they came over here and my dad saw some really good deals so he bought me a bunch of groceries and snacks for the boys. He is so awesome I didn't even ask for it. Ok I am done now thanks for listening.

We went camping last weekend. We had a great time, but it rained alot. We did manage to get out for a bit on Saturday though. I was driving Rob's quad and he had Garths dirtbike. I stalled the quad just before crossing the river and then just before we got back to the campsite we stopped to talk and when we were about to leave again I went..... hmmmm!!! how do you start a standard quad without the kickstart? lol I had lost it from the last time I started it so I think it is in the river. We had to roll the quad down the hill and jump start it. Just wait it gets even better I was trying to start it and it wouldn't so Rob took over and he comes back with it running and says you didn't have the key in the on position.... Man did I feel dumb lol! Here are some pictures from camping. There is one of me in the river and yes I stalled it again, lol! you can't tell what gear you are in you just have to remember and I was in to high of a gear and when I slowed down it stalled, Rob had to come and start it for me.
Rob went for a bone marrow test yesterday, and he is so sore, they stick about an 8 inch tube in you and then scrape your bone marrow. It was very painful he said. Rob goes for the test next week to see what stage the cancer is at.